I don’t understand.

What is it you want from me?

I have given you everything.

My life,

my loyalty

my soul,

but it is never enough.

Now you ask me to forsake

what is most important to me.

My heart,

my love.

For what?

Your ideals?

Your beliefs?

They are not mine

and I do not believe in forcing

what is not meant to be.

I will not live this lie anymore

and you will not use me

as your catalyst for your war.

So take your beliefs,

your quest,

your kingdom.

I do not want them.

Instead I choose life,

my life,

my own,

and I will live it

with someone who loves me

for who I am,

not for who they want me to be.

If you still do not understand,

I choose me.

~ © Heidi Barnes 2014