Unknown

Feelings so deep
threatening to overwhelm
nowhere to show them
nowhere to run
how do I express
when I don’t understand
what I want
what I need
what I feel
how do I overcome
the unknown

Too Many Words

Chaos reigns inside my head

People, places, phrases

Jumbled into one

Big

Mess

I try to untangle

Piece together two by two

Only to snarl them further

Until nothing but emptiness

Remains

Copyright 2017 Heidi Barnes

Whispers in the Dark

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Whispers in the dark
Touches feather light
Flames singe
Sleepless night
Bodies wound tight
Surging
Building
Detonation
Nirvana
Morning dawn
Bodies cool
Fantasies lived
Reality seeps in
Breaking away
To live again
Until another time
When fires burn bright
In darkest night.

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Are You Sure?

Mistakes made

Lessons learned

Time goes by

Memory fades

Stories told

Twist, change

Lessons once learned

Forgotten with age

Go ahead

I dare you

Poke the beast

It only sleeps

Poke the beast

Chains hold it in its keep

Poke the beast

See what arrogance brings

Poke the beast

It may be the last you see

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It was nothing special

A look

A smile

A memory to sweet to forget

And I’m right back to that day

Where everything fell apart

When you were taken from me

And I was lost

The darkness swallowing me whole

Crushing me

until I could not breathe

When life

Stopped

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No Words

There are no words
no thoughts
no actions
that could convey
the depths of my feelings.
Only you can understand
because only you
can see
can feel
can know
me.
-Brynn & Kara

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I don’t know if Kara’s story will ever be published, but for the moment it is at the forefront of my mind. For now I suppose it will be told through poems.

Loss Overwhelming

my feet drag
words will not
come
I am lost
wandering aimlessly
a shell
eyes refuse to
focus
I don’t know how
to go on
the ground
is my bed
hard
unforgiving
cold
I don’t know how
to breathe
reaching out
touching
air
curled around myself
I give in
there is no end
only pain
only vast
everlasting
emptiness

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When Darkness Falls

When darkness falls
Night creatures crawl
Entice you they will
Promises of riches and thrills
Stay inside where it’s safe and sane
To venture out
May bring blood and pain
You might think yourself brave
You might think yourself invulnerable
But the creatures in the darkness
Can see your mind
They know your weaknesses
They know your fears
Venture if you must
I’ll pray what comes to pass
Will not leave you in tears

Copyright 2017 Heidi Barnes

Choices and Balance

In everything, there is a beginning and an end.

Even great mountains rise and fall as time continues to roll on.

Within that time, a delicate balance must be maintained
or all will fall into chaos and ruin.

The universe is no different.

Among the chaos of creation there is still a semblance of balance,
or nothing would be able to form, to grow, to endure.

But what keeps that balance?

Is it divine force, or just chance?

Is it strong and sure,
or just holding on by a thread that is ready to break at any moment?

Do we have centuries, years,
or days before the life we know ends as suddenly as it began?

Is it as simply as a choice between good or evil, right or wrong, love or hate.

Or is it as simple as choosing it embrace both,
because without one the other does not exist.

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Dangerous Thrill

Shadowy alleyways
Darken corners
Not a soul in sight
Waiting for footsteps
Stalking the night
Warnings of danger
Gone unheeded
Seeking something dangerous
Forbidden
A thrill
The props are in place
Cloth wrapped tight
Skin exposed
To winters might
Highest heels
Shortest skirt
Swaying hips
Quietly screaming
Please
Come take
Shadows move
Figures five make
Faltering steps
Second thoughts too late
Deed set in motion
No turning back
Ready or not
They attack

 

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