Time Stands Still

How do I go on
when all seems lost?
How does each day begin
and end
when time seems to
stand still?
When to step outside
to see what the world offers
what life can give
the ups
the downs
the in-between
seems like a step into
Hell?
I watch from hidden windows
wishing
praying
that one day I can break free
from this pain
that keeps me
inside
drags me under
suffercates
so once again
I can see a horizon
I can breathe
I can take that step
and live.

Copyright © 2018 Heidi Barnes

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Trust

You want me?
You can’t have me.
I cannot give you what I do not own.
Tread carefully
for the one who claims what you seek
will not take kindly to trespassers.

Is it trespass
when I know what I want
you want too?
Let me free you
Break the bonds that chain you.
Trust in me
Trust in us
Trust in love
Trust in fate

Copyright 2018 Heidi Barnes

Angst of a Writer

I see voices in my head
All talking at once
All wanting attention I cannot give
Imploring
Seeking
Demanding that I write their words
See their pain
Live their joy
Share their journey
So others may enjoy.
Worn down I take my pen
Situate my paper
and listen….
I re-situate my paper
and listen….
Sighing
I lay my pen down
Put my head in my hands
Praying for inspiration
Coherent thought
Help!
Silence ensues
Tension rises
All eyes narrow
Searching
….finding….
Growls of frustration
Words hissed, best not repeated
As over in the corner
In an overstuffed arm chair
Filing her nails
A glass of chardonnay
Box of chocolates
on the table beside her
My muse sits.
The one who translates
Thoughts
Pictures
Into flowing words
Her eyes glued to the TV
Watching Game of Thrones
A grizzly scene
Yet another red wedding
Unfolding
Unawares that in a moment
Fantasy may very well become
Reality

Copyright 2017 Heidi Barnes

Coin of My Choice

Do you die for tomorrow

Or live another day

Do weep in sorrow

Or laugh at your prey

When choices you make

Impact my destination

Payment must be paid

Repercussion wide spread

Coin of my choice

Life’s blood release

Hide if you must

In the end I will find you

Run if you must

In the end I will win

Copyright © 2017 Heidi Barnes

One Ring

Into the night I roam,
demons created in pain and malcontent
close on my heels,
my death they hunger
their master’s only edict.
So many sacrifices,
friendships forged,
only to be lost in the chaos
one piece of gold compelled.
Alone I go,
no one else will I lose
to this mission of futility.
Through war and greed
I travel on.
Into the fire
I must go,
for only then
will this madness end.

Copyright 2017 Heidi Barnes

Redemption

You seek redemption
I cannot give
Your crimes to numerous
The atrocities wide spread.
Payment must be received
Though no coin will be paid
Vengeance never is sweet
To those deserving its touch
You deny the possibility
Yet it will come for you
No shadow darkness thick
No hole deep enough
I wait until then
Redemption’s price revealed
Justice made real

Copyright 2017 Heidi Barnes

Unknown

Feelings so deep
threatening to overwhelm
nowhere to show them
nowhere to run
how do I express
when I don’t understand
what I want
what I need
what I feel
how do I overcome
the unknown

Too Many Words

Chaos reigns inside my head

People, places, phrases

Jumbled into one

Big

Mess

I try to untangle

Piece together two by two

Only to snarl them further

Until nothing but emptiness

Remains

Copyright 2017 Heidi Barnes