They are just words
to tell a story,
sing a song.
They are just words,
to lift you up
make you strong.
They are just words
sharp as glass
scars will forever last.
They are just words
once said
never forgotten.
They are just words
choose wisely
judgment unforgiving
when the mirror you gaze.
Walking With Death
I walk through shadows
with Death by my side,
his hand on my shoulder
his eyes wise.
We walk as old friends
with stores to tell,
for this is not the first time
we’ve walked this trail.
My time has not come
to leave this realm,
it is for comfort he comes
to reassure another is well.
My life long dance
will end soon enough,
so I will try to live each moment
to the fullest,
for before I know it
my hand he will take
and lead me towards
the next chapter my journey will make.
© 2015 Heidi Barnes
Chapter Length: Long or Short
Morning everyone! 🙂
I have a quick question for you. What is your ideal chapter length? I mean, when you are reading, does it matter how long the chapters are? Do you like shorter chapters vs longer chapters?
I’m asking because I usually try and keep my chapters between 5 and 8 pgs, give or take a page. I do this because when I am reading at night I usually like to stop at the end of a chapter. There are times I am so tired that I can’t see straight and my eyes hurt so I have to stop beforehand. But that’s just me. And I know some chapters are longer because you write what it takes to tell that particular part of the story.
So, short chapters or long chapters or does it even matter?
Have a wonderful Saturday! I’ll be out doing yardwork. 🙂
Cleansing Rain
Endless summer days
dry as dust and bone.
What I wouldn’t give
for cleansing rain
to feeds Earth’s soil.
© Heidi Barnes
My Minds Chaos
I see roses,
I see pants,
I see so many things
running through my head.
When will it stop?
When will it end?
When will I find
peace again?
Inner dialogue,
ranting, raving,
never a moments peace
never the light at the end.
Pushing, prodding
begging to be let loose,
but what will people think?
What will they say?
When they hear my thoughts
in complete disarray.
I don’t know how.
I don’t know when.
These thoughts of mine
will end,
or begin.
I should focus,
try to stay sane,
for there are words
that should never be said.
I try and try
with all my might
to end this reign
of terror that is my plight.
For those who understand
these words I share,
I wish you well
your soul respite.
© 2015 Heidi Barnes
Garden update #3
Yes, it’s been a while since I have updated my gardening posts. That does not mean we have been idle! Just busy with real life. Like, the end of school. It’s now out for summer so I will have more time to do gardening and editing (which I need to get busy with!) and work on my online presence that has been almost nonexistent. Also some big birthday milestones. Hubby is now 50 and my youngest is 21. (Gah!) Also have had some graduation parties in there. The yardwork is getting done, just not in a timely manner. lol
As you probably have noticed I didn’t not put ‘pathway update’ because I’ve also been working on the rest of the backyard. Here are a few before and after pictures. I wish they would go side by side, but putting the caption on them seems to not allow that.
I’m hoping the Barberry survives. It’s late in the season to be moving plants and this one was pretty big. I had to have my son help hold it up why I put the dirt around the roots. I tried to do it by myself and quickly/painfully realized that was not going to work. 😛
The grass is slowly coming in. I don’t think we will use the type of seed we did again. It sort of works like hydro-seeding in that it has peat moss in it. You lay the seed, water it and it sort of explodes with the peat moss. It’s the best way I can describe it. It also seemed to be too compact so didn’t come in as quickly as the regular see with fertilizer we used.
Here are some pictures I took this morning of the pathway and the garden behind the patio. We are not done with the backyard yet, but I need to now concentrate on the front because it is looking rather neglected and that is what everyone sees.
Well, I should be getting back outside before it gets too hot. It’s suppose to be 100F this weekend and that is not something I want to work outside in :S It’s so weird. My friends in Texas are underwater and we haven’t had a good rain for three months so are bone dry!
Have a great week! 🙂
Words, words, words…..
Words, words, more words
Tumbling around in my head.
Begging to be written
Begging to be said.
How do I sleep
Think, eat
With all these words
Battling to escape?
Help me to find
A way to set them free,
Help me find
Peace, serenity.
I Reach for the Sky
I stretch towards the sky
The unattainable just out of reach.
I do not give up nor turn back
For the lessons I learn I will teach.
I hear the naysayers,
Their poison thick in the air.
Dragging me down into the depths of despair.
I claw and scrape
Trying to escape
The darkness below that suffocates.
Craving the light where the song birds fly
The warmth of the sun
The blue of the sky.
Seeds are sown
The roots run deep
I don’t know how
To earn my keep
The end is near
Please do not weep
For peace will find me
When I finally sleep.
~ Copy Write 2015 Heidi Barnes
Sitting in the Twilight
Sitting in the twilight
Waiting for the sun
Wishing you were here
Because without you, life is undone.
We‘ve had our ups,
We’ve had our downs,
But never will I regret
Saying yes to questions renowned
Spoken throughout the ages
To lovers and sweethearts
Of every gender abound.
Will you live your life with me?
Will you share your hopes and dreams?
Will you grow old with me,
Until our days end?
Will you make the journey of two souls,
Through the happy times and the sad?
Say yes to all these questions asked
And together we will make a beautiful past.
I promise you will be my one and only,
Because no other will compare
To the beauty that is what you are.
I will dedicate my life
To being your lifeline, your home.
All I ask is that you be mine
Until the end of our time.
Sitting in the twilight,
Wishing you were here.
The sun will never rise for me
Until you are once again near.
~ Copyright 2015 Heidi Barnes
Update on Pathway Project #2
Good morning everyone.
I am sitting out on my deck on a Sunday morning (really too early for the amount of sleep I got last night, which was none) enjoying a cup of coffee and listening to the morning birds. It is a bit chilly out here, but the last few days of 75F and above have helped make it not too bad. Doesn’t mean I don’t have a sweater and slippers on though.
I’m also enjoying the progress we’ve made on the pathway. Not only is it done, but the sod around it has been moved and compost put in.
We’ve also put in a do it yourself sprinkler system. I’ve been slowly doing that around the yard trying to make my watering a bit easier. Out in the garden by the shed is done as is along the back of the house. I didn’t get around the house buried and now I need to fix some of the joints because they have cracked. So that will be another project that I need to work on soon.
After we finished with the first load of compost (the entire yard is in need of it. It’s been years since the last time I put some down) Hubby and I went to Home Depot to looked at their plants. We found a few to start with,
but I won’t put them in until we take down the Silk Tree that hasn’t been doing well. Something got to it and it started splitting at the joint.
So last year Hubby and my youngest son got the chainsaw out and took the heaviest part off. It’s something he’s been wanting to do for a long time and I fought him on it. When my mom suggested that it was probably the best thing to do for the tree, five minutes after she left and I was down the street walking the dog the chainsaw roared and the tree was in half.
There is a story with this tree that has to do with my niece, but I will save that for another day because it’s painful and I don’t want to ruin your morning. Suffice to say, taking the tree down was no easy decision for me. However, after looking at it all winter I decided it had to come down the rest of the way and I’m okay with the decision. I’m hoping that the trunk is not too rotted inside so my dad can make a vase or a small bowl out of it. I’ll have to show you his work sometime. For a what started out as a retirement hobby, he’s pretty damn good at it. But I digress.
So today the Silk Tree comes down and so does a Blue Spruce that is not doing well. That will open up a part of the yard that has been in deep shade for a long time, so I will have more options for plants and also for making that particular garden smaller. This is part of why I didn’t sleep well last night. You know how pruning goes. Starting is not so hard. It’s the stopping that’s the… well you know. 😉 And now that I have help there are lot of projects that I’ve been wanting to do that involves cutting things down and rearranging. (Just need too tell hubby. (he he he) We also need to hit a better bigger nursery and pick up some more plants. Planning all that out kept me up all night. Going to be a long but hopefully productive day.
Have a wonderful day. 🙂
To See What I See 