Just Breathe

To think we are the only ones
That everything revolves around you
Your beliefs
Your truth
Will only keep you from understanding
Love
Compassion
Life.
Open your mind
Your heart
Your soul
And see things through another’s eyes.
Maybe then the hate
The anger
That chokes you everyday
Stifling your ability to enjoy
What this time on earth has given you
Will slide away
And you can begin to live
To grow
To just
Breathe.

© 2015 Heidi Barnes

Mundane Acts of Day to Day Living

Everyday there are things we do that we don’t consciously think about. Putting the brush on the counter after we brush our hair. Placing the silverware in the sink after we use it. Putting our keys on the counter or table when we arrive home. Small little mundane things that are just habit or ritual.

This past week had been a study in how much I actually think about those mundane things before I do them without realizing it. At the present, we are in the middle of a kitchen remodel/wet bar/1/2 bathroom remodel. My kitchen is a empty cavernous room with electrical wires and the metal tube for the fan in the middle of the sub floor. The wet bar, which the previous owners put in a closet and we put our keys, mail and whatever other crap onto is gone. The bathroom is only a toilet. The only sink downstairs is the one in the garage. So needless to say, counter space is left to a white fold up table I bought at Costco that now holds a small microwave and toaster. (Pray for my sanity as I still have 2 weeks to go before we are put back to together. And that is only if everything goes according to schedule.)

My usual routine when I walk in the front door is to put my keys and purse on the wet bar. Yet there is no wet bar. So I have to rethink and set it in the office. I want to make some coffee. I realize then that as I get up my mind goes through the motions of each step of what I have to do to get that cup of coffee because it is no longer in the kitchen. It is in the office. (Let me tell you. My little cubicle of an office is very full right now! :P) So I have to rethink what I need to do. I want to make some toast for breakfast. Instantly my mind sees the kitchen (which is no longer there) and where the muffins and toaster are in the kitchen, (which again are no longer there. They are in the living and dining room among the boxes holding my kitchen). Then last but not least the knife I need to spread the peanut butter and honey on said muffin. (No silverware. We have plastic in baggies and now I’m hungry.)

Do you see where I’m going with this. Even while our mind is on something that may have happened at work or what we are doing this weekend, it is also working on opening the front door, putting the keys on the counter where they belong, taking off our shoes. We just don’t realize it until our world is disrupted and we have to change those routines. In a small way it’s kind of neat to realize how complex our minds are and what we can do with them if only given half a chance.

Have a great week. 🙂

Walking With Death

I walk through shadows
with Death by my side,
his hand on my shoulder
his eyes wise.
We walk as old friends
with stores to tell,
for this is not the first time
we’ve walked this trail.
My time has not come
to leave this realm,
it is for comfort he comes
to reassure another is well.
My life long dance
will end soon enough,
so I will try to live each moment
to the fullest,
for before I know it
my hand he will take
and lead me towards
the next chapter my journey will make.

© 2015 Heidi Barnes

Image: Desktop Nexus
Image: Desktop Nexus

My will is my own.
You may try to take it,
mold it to your ideals,
but you will fail
for I am stronger than you think.
I am a pillar of stone
and those around me
are my foundation.
Together we will defeat you.
So go back to the beast which
spawned you,
never to return,
because if you do….
you will lose.

I Fly

 

I fly

soaring above the clouds

happy, joyous

the feeling of utter abandonment

filling me

until I feel ready to burst.

Freedom unbound

into the light and beyond.

 

~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

Live Life

I live,

I breathe,

The day goes on

and so do I.

But what is life?

Is it just making it through

the best we can?

Or is it living those days

to the fullest,

never stopping

never waiting for the night to catch us.

Forever moving on

until we can move on no more.

Do we let other dictate our lives?

Tell us what we can or cannot do.

What is right and what is wrong

according to them and their beliefs.

Each life is special,

each one unique.

No one soul is the same.

So I say

live life the best you can

with what you have

because it is your life,

not theirs,

so it is your choice

to live.