Christmas Favor

Christmas bells ring through the night

bringing cheer and holiday delight.

Memories of childhood fun,

with dreams of sugar plums.

While my childhood memories give warmth and smiles

there are those where the holidays

are sadden with tears.

So I ask one favor

during these holiday times,

take a moment to stop and think,

say a little pray,

and wish peace to everyone.

~ © Heidi Barnes

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! 🙂

Betrayals Payment

Image ~ Desktop Nexus Darknes
Image ~ Desktop Nexus
Darknes

You pull me into your embrace
Yet I feel no warmth.
You whisper words of love
Yet my heart shrivels and dies.
The air around me grows thick
My breathing comes in gasps
As I sink to the cold stone floor
As darkness surrounds me
Smothering me
Too late I realize what is suddenly so clear
You are not my love come back to me
The one my heart and souls calls for in the night
But evil incarnate come to claim me
To pull me down into the depths of hell
For my betrayal is too deep
And there is no God or Angel who can save me
Only the Angel of Death can release me
Yet even he turns his back in shame and disgust
Leaving me to the one who will own me
Use me
Until I scream for a mercy that will never come
Until you forgive me for what I have done

 

© 2013  Heidi Barnes

She is Mine

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Image ~ Desktop Nexus
She is mine
Therefore unattainable
I am hers
Therefore I will protect
That which is mine
Yet you cannot help yourself
…Can you
Something pulls you
Whispering what lies underneath
The layers of cloth and thread
Is nothing you have ever seen before
That one look
One touch
Will give you
What you have been seeking
Forever out of reach
Until now
Her eyes draw you in
Devouring your soul
But she is mine
And I protect what is mine
Touch her
Your existence will be meaningless
Touch her
You will cease to breathe
Touch her
And bear the consequences
Of dreams turned nightmare
You have been warned
Proceed at your own peril
I dare you ©

                  –  Addictions

 – © 2013  Heidi Barnes

Peace ~ Tranquility

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Cyprus Island San Juan Islands, Washington State

 

The lapping of waves against the shore

As the morning sun rises over the water

The peace that only nature can give

As the sound of bird’s wings

Breaks the stillness of the air

A beauty to inspire

Even the hard of hearts

A peace to calm

The restless of souls

And a tranquility that descends

With the evening sun setting on the hills

 

~ © 2013 Heidi Barnes

 

Words Released

I fade away
into darkness’s light.
My words are gone
to where I know naught.
I try to find
what my mind seeks
unable to say
unable to speak.
The words are there
though faded they be.
When will my mind clear?
When will the words be released?

~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

Memories Waken

Image Desktop Nexus Misty Night
Image Desktop Nexus
Misty Night

Memories waken

Misty mountains loom high

I walk a path

Where dreams can fly

You come to me

Eyes full of fevered hunger

Answering the call

Of a Siren’s desire.

One touch

One smile

And I am yours

Until time is no more.

Hold me tight

Never let me go,

And I will be true

Through life’s many trials.

Give me your heart

Share with me your soul,

I will respond in kind

Sealing our fate

With a kiss to bind.

~ 2014 Heidi Barnes

Into the Shadows

Image Nexus Desktop Red Eyes in Shadow
Image Nexus Desktop
Red Eyes in Shadow

Step into the shadows

The voices said.

Step into the darkness

And be fed.

Become one of us

And rewards you will reap.

Become one of us

To obtain the desires you seek.

But beware the price

For it may be steep.

Beware the price

Because true love’s heart

Is what we seek.

 

~ 2014 Heidi Barnes

Concentration…or Lack-There-Of

Lately I can’t seem to keep my mind on one thing. I have part of a rough draft I need to edit. At around page 200 of whatever I’m writing I stop at the end of the latest chapter then go back and re-read what I have to make sure everything flows, and to add those elements that came up later as I was writing and need to be introduce at an earlier place.  It’s the process I go through. Some may think that doesn’t make sense. Why do I not have an outline? Why don’t I have everything planned out before I write. The answer is simple. I am character driven, and where I may have a general idea of what is going to happen, if I draw out an outline I get the worse case of writers block you can imagine. My mind tries too hard to get from point A to B then to C without deviating that I can’t move forward. So I have a point A and a point Z. Point Z is not set in stone. Hell, point A can change too because somewhere around point L I decide it’s not going to work and re-write it.

So back to the editing. I print out the 200 pages and my goal is to read it through putting in edits as I go. I will not put anything into the computer until those 200 pages are edited on paper. So I started the process, then suddenly, as I am still in chapter 2, I’m re-writing something in chapter 10 because a new idea has hit me and I have to get it down. Then I realize what I have for the last 20 pages is not going to work so my brain starts working on that and the original edit goes out the window until I finish rewriting those pages…. (do you understand my pain now?)

I blame life for this. I am working full time, keeping the house and yard up and planning for a couple of parties. And to top it off I caught the plague that was going around. You see, I work in a school as a Para-educator. I am currently in our local Junior High and honestly it’s like working in a petri dish. Whatever is going around you WILL catch it. Well I caught it and it knocked my on my ass, twice, and gave me a sinuses infection. Yet, you know what? I would not trade my job for the world. I love working with the kids. At this age they always surprise me at some point. Some things are good surprises, some not so good, but I digress. (See! I told you I couldn’t stay on topic!)

Back to my original topic. My  mind kept at me saying, “You need to edit!”; “You need to write a blog on ONE of your websites so people know you’re still alive!”; “You need to post on Twitter and Facebook!”; “You need to promote your books!”; “You need to rake the leaves and mow the grass!” (Which hopefully I’ll get to today.) “You just received those books you preordered six months ago on your kindle. Don’t you want to read those?” It all seemed overwhelming so nothing got done.

To top it off, I was not exactly happy with what I had written in book two of Destiny. It just seemed flat to me. Where there were elements of excitement, it was not exciting enough. There was too much drama and not enough action. But for the life of me I could not figure out how to fix it. Then in the English class at school the kids started a new projected. They were to write a story about a “Hero’s Journey.” Now this could be about a super hero or it could be about the guy next door that suddenly had to save the neighborhood from the evil trash collector. This was something I could sink my teeth into. Something I knew how to do. Ask me about algebra and I will blink blanking at you and run for the “How to do algebra” website for help. Writing? This I knew how to do!

It’s been a study in biting my lip so I do not interrupt the teacher. I love the English teacher I work with. She is fun, engaging, will not take any crap from her students yet let them voice their opinions freely (no matter how silly it may be) and not make them feel stupid. And she’s really good at her job. My son had her in 8th and 9th grade and she is one of his favorite teachers from school. My education in writing consists of what I learned in high school, from books I have read on the subject and what I have read for my own pleasure. I have been writing since the 8th grade and as I grew older learned more and more. Going through this class with the now 8th graders, listening to the teacher as she explained what is needed for a good story (things I already knew but for some reason needed to hear again) the damn broke in my writer’s block. I knew now what I needed to change and what I needed to add. All things in the books I had written before but for some reason while writing this book I had left out.

So, instead of editing like I planned, different parts of the book and what I need to add or change to those parts are being done. And not necessarily in order of the books timeline. But that’s okay. As long as the finished product makes sense and entertains then all is good.

I also want to thank that English teacher. You have been an immense help in this process of writing book two of the Destiny trilogy/series. (Not sure yet which it will be. Ooh! Need a new title too. Hmmm……)

Off to rake leaves and think. Have a wonderful day!

Easter Memories

Whimsically pastel
colors surround
pink, purple, green galore.
Surprises packaged
in oval plastic,
children squealing in delight
running here and there
seeking prices left by
bunnies who sneak around at night
finding those places
out of sight.

2014 Heidi Barnes

I know that Easter is a ways away, but this was beating at me in my head and I had to write it down.