Grief
The signs were all there…
Why didn’t I see them?
I could have stopped this from happening
if I had just followed what my gut was trying to tell me.
I should have told him to watch her,
that something was not right,
but I knew he would never listen.
Too much anger between us.
Too much bitterness.
Why didn’t I see them?
Looking back the signs are so clear.
Her mention of ghosts
and if we believed in them.
Knowing from experience that loved ones
long passed,
come when the end is near.
The way she said she did not want to go,
like she knew she was not coming back.
The spurt of unease that I chose to ignore
as a mother’s always present protectiveness
for her child.
Why?
Why didn’t I listen?
If I had….
Why?
~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes
To See What I See 
Heidi that was so sad I Pray this didn`t happen to you or anyone close to you ,Take Care Heidi
This one is from my past. Questions at times I still ask myself. Where grief gets…easier, it never goes away. Not completely. Thanks Lindsay. 🙂
Oh my. Such pain. A sad reminder that instincts are signs that we must pay attention to even when others dismiss our feelings.
Very true. And to listen to our own.