Flame washes over
Devouring greedily
Hunger so vast
Only time slakes.
Blacken char
Withers what could be
Famine strikes out
Fueling need.
Seeking what once was
Despair overshadows.
Darkness descends
Hope dwindles
As night creatures feed.
Eyes wide open
Dawn rises
Survivors pray
Today is unknown
The new world displayed.
~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes
It hurts.
With every breath,
every thought,
my body, my mind
my soul hurts.
When will I feel whole again?
How will I survive without you?
You were my rock,
my reason to get up in the morning,
to fight for those who depend on me.
Now I feel nothing but pain.
How do I rebuild a life
that was centered around you?
How do I stop the hurt?
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My darling
my love
my life.
Remember
I am never far from you.
I will be there when you are broken,
I will be there when you are healed.
You are a part of me
as I am a part of you.
Take a moment to just breathe.
Take that first step towards the horizon
knowing that you are not alone.
You will never be alone.
Remember
that I will always be with you
in your heart.
~ © 2013 Heidi Barnes
This poem was written shortly after my great-aunt passed away. Her daughter was having a difficult time and having been through loss more times than I would like to count I understood what she was going through. I truly believe that there is more after this life and that our loved ones never truly leave us, just like I believe we will once again be reunited.
The rolling hills
calm my uneasy and worried mind.
Yet, the wooden mills
remind me of the past left behind.
Too much was said and has happened here.
A cracked scream
was too little for people to hear.
No bad dream!
In that one night,
you showed me no regrets.
I was too polite
and too afraid of debts.
You seized your chance
and I didn’t want to deny.
Our love was a dance
of our very last goodbye.
~ © Alexander Wulf 01.05.2014
This was written by a close friend of mine and he graciously let me share it with you.
As the night grows dark,
creatures forbidden in light
stir.
Footsteps lightly tread
where others fear to go,
courage a distant memory
sensations of home fill the holes.
Where once uncertainty roamed
determination breeds trust.
A world full of unknown
only one truth stands alone.
No matter were you roam
I will never be far,
in your heart,
in your soul.
Forever is an eternity
I will not waste
with fear and doubt.
There is no other
who can sway me from my path.
Danger all around
yet safety envelops me
the deeper I go,
the darker it becomes,
the farther I fall.
Life ever changing
one thing remains true,
I will never betray
for life is for living
and there is no life
without you.
~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes
Taking one step at a time,
the world seeming big
my courage small.
Do I dare chance
feeling the pain?
Do I put myself out there
when I know what awaits me?
My heart is barely healed
yet I cannot bear the silence alone.
So I take one step into the unknown,
put my heart in jeopardy.
Try to relearn how to live,
how to breathe without you.
Days, years, of darkness
the sun is bright.
I shy away,
fear holding me back
from what I know I need to do.
A warm hand,
a gentle smile
and I know I am not alone.
My pain shared
with knowledge bittersweet.
My heart forever pieces missing
I will survive,
I will go on.
True love a distant memory,
never forgotten
yet not impossible.
One step at a time
until we meet again.
~ © 2013 Heidi Barnes for It Happened at Sunrise One Christmas Morn
This was inspired by a story I am writing from a free write. If you would like to follow the story you can go here to read the chapter 1 of It Happened at Sunrise one Christmas Morn. I will post chapters as I write them. This will be the rough draft. Depending on how things go I will publish the final draft on Kindle.
There is another story there, Forever Lost, that started the same way. As I am polishing it up I am learning more so the final draft will be a bit different the rough draft on my site.
Drowning in a sea of damnation.
Trying to keep my head above the waves of what ifs,
Choking on the if onlys.
Wanting to know was it me who was not enough
Or was it you who did not care enough?
How do I survive this endless circle of blame,
Step away from what cannot be changed?
How do I walk away
When hope still lingers we can survive?
How do I let go and once again become
Whole?
~ © 2013 Heidi Barnes
From a prompt on Kellie Elmore’s Website.
I watched as you stumble
Caught you when you fell
But you pushed me away.
You played at being strong,
Your eyes show your pain.
I tried
Time and time again
Until there was nothing left
And I still stayed.
Slowly sinking into your trap
Losing what was once me
So you can survive one more day.
As I turn away I wait
For something
Anything.
Please
Say something and I will stay
For even after all the darkness
We have been through
I still love you
Even as I say goodbye…..
I tried
I spoke
My views different
Not yours
And I was punished
So I will speak no more
The cost to great
To my soul
~ © 2013 Heidi Barnes
When the hits keep coming
How do I keep upright
When all I want is to lay down?
How do I win
When all is against me?
How do I learn to love
When my heart is shattered?
My faith is hanging by a thread,
Fingers bloody and torn.
It would be easy to let go,
Fall into darkness
Let despair swallow me whole.
Light extinguished for all time.
Remember you are not alone.
There are those who have suffered
Felt the despair
The grief
The loneliness.
Learn what time has taught them.
Learn life goes on
Though it feels like the end.
Learn that when faith seems shattered
It is only around the bend,
Waiting for you to reclaim.
And most of all
Remember
You are not alone
~ © 2013 Heidi Barnes
We fight for what is right.
We fight for hope of all living kind.
We fight for the right to choose our own destinies.
We fight for life,
And most of all
We fight for love,
But what if it is not enough?
What if, in the end,
What we fight for is not what we thought?
What if the cost is too great?
What if….
In the fight for freedom
We lose that which is most important.
Ourselves.
Do we lay down our arms?
Let those who seek to control
All they see, all they know,
Take what is not rightfully theirs?
In your arms the horrors around us
Cannot touch me.
I am safe for you are my strength,
My soul,
As I am yours.
As long as you are by my side
Together can withstand anything thrown at us.
Misery
Famine
Fire
Loss.
All will crumble into dust.
Hope will win out
And those who oppose us
Will crawl back into the darkness whence they came.
No longer burning with rage
But weak with the despair they sought to give.
We shall rise triumphant.
Our wounds will heal,
Our hearts mend.
We will make sure that those who wish to dominate
Will never again step foot on our land,
Or the hell they wish to descend upon us
Will be returned tenfold,
Because our hope
Our strength
Our love
Will always be stronger.
In the end
We will always prevail.
~ © 2013 Heidi Barnes
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