I am not Afraid

I know what you are.
You can’t hide from me anymore.
I know what you are
and I am not afraid.

You should be
for I am your salvation,
and damnation.
I am your life
and your death.

I still do not fear you.

I will destroy you without remorse.
I will relish your pain
as I send you into Hell.

No you will not.

Run, run
run while you can,
before it’s too late,
because once I sink my teeth
into your sweet
tantalizing
skin,
you will forever be
mine.

I am already a part of your soul.
You know this.
You will not hurt me.
You can’t.
I am not afraid!

I am.

Copyright 2016 Heidi Barnes

 

The Holidays are Here!

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Okay. Who’s ready for Christmas? *raises hand* Not me! LOL The tree is up, thanks to my wonderful sons, and decorated. Most of the presents are wrapped. Still have a couple to get, but those are money. I really don’t have a problem with giving people money for Christmas. Sometimes the things they want cost more than one person can afford. So why not help them with reaching their goal?

What else needs to be done. Let’s see…. I finally was able to get out into the yard Saturday to clean up the mess from the last two storms and do all the fall things that I couldn’t get to. Between the rain and working on the house I’ve had no time. Saturday was actually sunny (which in the last few months is a miracle. I can honestly say the drought is over in Western Washington!) It never fails that when I clean up debris from wind storms, not long after another one hits and it’s a mess again. So now that it’s clean (I’m so going to regret this) Bring it on Mother Nature! (Yep. Going to regret that big time. 😛 )

Need to buy food and clean house. We are hosting Christmas this year so need to make it presentable. Since we are in the middle of updating the floors and molding ourselves, the downstairs isn’t quite finished. It’s getting there and looks a lot better, though. The carpeting upstairs I think is original for the house, which was build in 1984. So yeah….gross. As soon as the downstairs is done, that is the next project.

I know there are many different celebrations going on this time of year. I don’t know the names of all of them, and I’m not about to try and name them all here because I don’t want to forget any. It seems so easy to offend people these days. I say Merry Christmas and someone gets made because they don’t celebrate Christmas so somehow I offended them. If they tell me happy-whatever-your-religious-holiday-is and I’m not offended. Really, it’s okay. Everyone has their religion, and as long as they don’t try to ram it down my throat and respect that I have my own religion I’m okay with it. (Oh, and before someone says something, I don’t think telling me happy-whatever-your-religious-holiday-is is not ramming it down my throat.) Honestly, why can’t people just get along and be happy with the differences. It would be rather boring without them.

Okay, enough from me. Enjoy your holidays whenever they may fall and whatever they may be. 🙂

Copywrite 2015 Heidi Barnes

Rain – Free Write

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Cold
Clear
Cleansing
Washing away the dirt and grime
Washing away grief and pain
Laughter fills the air with glee
Tears of joy given merrily
I see your joy
I feel your pain
Know I will be with you
No matter what causes the rain

Copyright © 2015 Heidi Barnes

This free write is in response to Annie’s Writing Challenge. Go take a look at the other submissions. She has a talented group.

Be Mine

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One chance
one moment
To tell you what you mean.
How you make me feel.
With just one glance,
One smile,
My world rights itself
Becomes a life I want to live.
If only you would be mine,
Could be mine.
Will you be mine?

Copyright 2015 Heidi Barnes

One

Slow
Sensuous
Hearts and bodies entwined
Keep rhythm with methodical grace
Touch, taste, breath
Mixing
Mingling
Tantalizing
Reaching for spiraling peak
Elusive if forever alone
Words caress
Taking lovers higher
Until crest breaks into bright wonder
Eyes wide open
Heart and body
Mind and soul
One

© 2015 Heidi Barnes

To Much to Ask?

I want to hear you
see you,
feel you.
I want to believe in you,
and know that you believe in me.
I want to know that my faith in you is not misplaced.
That I can trust you with the one thing that I hold dear,
my heart.
I want to know where this will lead,
If my time well be well spent.
Tell me that you love me.
Show me that I can trust you.
Take me into your arms
hold me tight.
Never let me go
and i will be yours
forever more.

© 2015 Heidi Barnes

Home

You stepped away
Only for a moment in time,
Yet it seems like a lifetime ago
That you held me in your arms
Telling me you love me,
That you will never leave me
No matter what life throws are way.
Giving me the security that only
Unconditional love can give.
Then a stranger took it all way.
Yet as I crave the safety of your arms,
The soothing sound of your voice,
I still feel that you are here,
Watching over me
Protecting me as you promised
So many time before.
And I know that one day
I will once again feel your arms around me
Hear your voice promising me that
You will always be there for me.
That I will once again be
Home.

© 2015 Heidi Barnes

Suzi’s Birthday Present

I have a wonderful friend on Twitter that I love to have fun with when it comes to writing. Over the years, we have come up with a couple of characters that every once in a while peek their heads onto Twitter and take over our threads.

Mine comes from a character that I created in a Free Write Friday I used to do on Kellie Elmore’s website. She is a witch that lives in the forest by herself, which she likes it that way. Although she does not look a day over thirty, she is very old and is neither good or evil. Because she has been betrayed in the worst of ways, their are very few that she has let into her life or she trusts. Suzanne’s character is a pixie by the name of Suzi. Suzi always means well, but her magic is, shall we say, a little…unpredictable. Even so, Suzi has managed to worm her way into my character’s heart, even if at times the pixie exasperates her to no end.

What started out as Suzi waking me up early in the morning with exuberance and being very loud (I am NOT a morning person either in story or real life) has grown into a friendship and an actual story, which we should get back to writing someday.

So, it was my birthday last weekend and Suzi paid me a little visit. I have copied and pasted the entire thread onto here. Due to Twitter’s 140 character rule, I have edited a few words that were shortened and fixed the punctuation and format. Otherwise everything is the same as it was on Twitter.

So, enough from me. Here is Suzi’s Birthday Present

 

Suzi flutters into the living room with a small box in her hand. She quietly places it on the floor. Pursing her lips as she looks around, she decides she’ll need more room. Removing her wand, she gently sweeps all the furniture against the wall.

“Hmmm,” she says with a big smile. “That should do it.” Walking back to the small box she reaches in her pocket for her bag of pixie dust. “Now let me think. Is it one pinch or two?” She reaches in to take some out and the bag drops out of her hand and emptied out all over the box. “Oh my!” she exclaims and slowly flutters back woods as the box starts growing in size. In no time at all the box fills the entire room and Suzi is very close to being squished into the window. Just barely making it out in time, she flutters outside the house as the living room starts to groan and stretch from the pressure of the growing box.

“Oooooh no!! It gonna blow!!!” She exclaims in horror. “Take cover!” she yells as she ducks behind the nearest tree.

Just as thinks could not get any worse the house explodes! There left standing is a ginormous white box with a big red ribbon wrapped around it with a card that reads, “Happy birthday Heidi!”

“Oh jeez!” she sighs. “I don’t suppose she’ll want to open the box now. There was a pretty pink balloon I decorated by hand in there,” Suzi thought to herself. “I wonder how many there are now?”

 

Returning from the market, I slow to a stop, my mouth open, eyes wide as I survey the scene before me. There is a gigantic white box with a pink bow sitting among what is left of my living room, which is in shards around the meadow. Even the trees, who groan in n protest as sap weeps down their bark, have pieces of living room sticking out like small daggers. Somewhere, probably under the box, is my furniture….

Closing my eyes and counting to twenty, I take a deep breath, let it out slowly then opened them. “Suzi? Why is there a laarrgge box on my house?”

“Umm… Birthday present?” she relays sheepishly. “Wanna open it?”

“Sure…!” Praying for patience and the luck of the Irish, and every other charm that brings luck, I step towards the box and reach for the bow, gently tugging on it. It won’t budge.

“Here!” Suzi exclaims. “Let me help!!” Giving the ribbon a hard tug the lid flies open and thousands of pink hand decorated balloons come flying out!!

Gasping in awe, we watch them as most of them float up into the heavens, some staying near the ground so I can enjoy them.

“Thank you Suzi! They are beautiful!” I reach down to pick one up and examine it, loving the detail. “You really should be an artist.”

“Ummm, Heidi, you might want to put that down.” Suzi says looking up into the sky. As each balloon pops, fireworks explode.

My body freezes, the only things that work are my fingers, which let go of the balloon. Coming to my senses, I step away from the balloon before it explodes. Raising my unblinking eyes upwards, I watch the fireworks, careful to wave away any balloon that float my way.

“Very lovely,” I say my voice slightly strained. “Um, Suzi?

“Yes Heidi?”

“Be a dear and put my house back together exactly the way it was then heal the trees. I’ll start dinner. I got your favorite.” 🙂

“Yes Heidi. Oh.. And Heidi? Happy birthday!!

“Thank you, dear.” 😀

Hugs my friend!!

 

© 2015 Heidi Barnes & Suzanne Carey

Sitting in the Twilight

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Sitting in the twilight
Waiting for the sun
Wishing you were here
Because without you, life is undone. 

We‘ve had our ups,
We’ve had our downs,
But never will I regret
Saying yes to questions renowned
Spoken throughout the ages
To lovers and sweethearts
Of every gender abound.
Will you live your life with me?
Will you share your hopes and dreams?
Will you grow old with me,
Until our days end?
Will you make the journey of two souls,
Through the happy times and the sad?
Say yes to all these questions asked
And together we will make a beautiful past.
I promise you will be my one and only,
Because no other will compare
To the beauty that is what you are.
I will dedicate my life
To being your lifeline, your home.
All I ask is that you be mine
Until the end of our time.

Sitting in the twilight,
Wishing you were here.
The sun will never rise for me
Until you are once again near.

~ Copyright 2015 Heidi Barnes