Category: Poetry

Acceptance Heals

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Hope

Time has passed

the memories are still clear

but they do not cut as they once did,

taking me to my knees.

My tears are dry

my heart while not whole

is healing.

I know it is not your fault

I know somewhere in the great plan

this was meant to be,

and while that does not make the hurt any less

it does help me understand.

Accept that it was your time

and my time is not yet.

I have things I still need to do

before I join you.

Do I still miss you?

Yes.

Does the pain still cripple me?

Sometimes.

Do I still love you?

With all my heart!

Will I ever see you again?

I have to believe or all is lost.

So with you in my heart

I move forward,

take the next step on my journey,

my life.

~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

Why? ~ Grief’s If Only

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Grief

The signs were all there…

Why didn’t I see them?

I could have stopped this from happening

if I had just followed what my gut was trying to tell me.

I should have told him to watch her,

that something was not right,

but I knew he would never listen.

Too much anger between us.

Too much bitterness.

Why didn’t I see them?

Looking back the signs are so clear.

Her mention of ghosts

and if we believed in them.

Knowing from experience that loved ones

long passed,

come when the end is near.

The way she said she did not want to go,

like she knew she was not coming back.

The spurt of unease that I chose to ignore

as a mother’s always present protectiveness

for her child.

Why?

Why didn’t I listen?

If I had….

Why?

~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

Grief Consumes

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I reach for you

you are no longer there.

I call for you

but you no longer answer.

The cold seeps in

as darkness surrounds me.

Voices in the shadows

call to me

begging me to come home

but I can’t.

There is no home for me

not without you.

The light begs to come in

seeping through the dark

breaking the cocoon keeping the pain out.

I will not let it in.

I am safe here

I will wait here

I will…..

Anger’s Pain

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Why?

Why did you stay late?

Why didn’t you come home like you promised?

What could have possible been so important

that you broke that promise?

Why did you leave me?

No…

why did YOU take him from me?

What did he do that was so horrible

his life must be cut short?

What have I done to deserve this pain?

I don’t understand!

All loving

all knowing

all…..

I hate you.

You took everything from me

and now I am nothing.

Nothing….

Denial

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No.
You’re wrong.
He’s not gone.
He would not leave me,
not like this.
There has to be some mistake!
Silence
It’s there, in their eyes.
Sadness,
pain,
fear.
It can’t be true.
I look at the clock and smile.
He will be home soon.
Then they will see that they are wrong.
Yes,
anytime now the door will open and he will walk through,
smiling that smile that melts my heart.
We will laugh at the joke.
You’ll see.
Anytime now….
Any…
time….

Spirit

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I walk the earth
feet bare, eyes open.
Taking in all that I see,
I feel,
I sense.
I search for that one.
You know,
the one who will tell me
everything I want to know.
 
They are there,
just out of sight.
Hiding in the shadows
teasing me with glimpses of fairy light.
Those spirits of old,
forgotten memories,
faded into tales told to help children sleep.
 
What if I told you those tales are true?
That once upon a time
there was more than me and you.
That spirits walked this earth
free from malice and fear,
helping those in need
or playing tricks for cheer.
 
As this world grows old
we are told what to believe.
That evil lurks nearby
forever trying to take us to our knees.
But what is evil except what others perceive.
A fear,
a hatred,
an unknown that is hard to believe.
 
I walk these lands
and see the marvels around me
and wonder why one spirit’s magic is call miracle
while another is shunned as the devil’s deed.
If I were to wave my hand
and a tree springs to life in winter’s deep,
would I be hailed a miracle worker,
or be burned a witch on the pyre of man’s sins.
 
Within us all a spirit resides.
It’s who we are,
how we live.
So I ask you now this question of old,
who are you to judge me and my beliefs
when judgment is not yours?
If sins I have I will answer in time,
but only to the spirit that surrounds me
leads me,
loves unconditionally
me, my soul.

Air

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I fly with confidence

only time provides,

soaring among the clouds

the sun warm against my hair.

Below green and blue

spread far and wide.

A testament to life

as it quietly resides.

 

A soft breeze gentle kiss

soothingly cool to day’s hot breath.

Yet one subtle shift

and everything fixed

is suddenly adrift.

Life giving,

life changing,

twisting

turning,

leisurely making its way.

Clearing a path

wide with destruction.

The devil’s sashay.

 

Sitting atop

a lone oak tree,

I survey the destruction

with detached ease.

I once knew this place,

long ago,

when life was brand new

and man had yet to grow.

The beauty was magnificent,

the air crisp and clear,

life living in harmony,

no poison to breathe.

 

I mourn those lost days,

when soaring through trees

did not mean metal

or glass

or concrete,

but wood

and leaves

and  serenity.

 

Air is life.

Air is giving.

Air can taketh away.

So beware the living

And treat Mother Earth

with kindness and care,

or her wraith you will receive

in the form of air.

 

 ~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

 

Earth

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Walking forwards,
the past behind me
the future unknown.
Hard lessons have been learned,
yet I know more are to come.
 
As winters melts
and spring is reborn,
I draw strength from the earth
under my toes.
The knowledge that
no matter how hard I fight,
how hard I deny,
life will keep moving forward.
It is my choice whether I move with it
or stay locked in time,
forever lost in pain.
 
I chose life,
because deep inside I know
that death is a step towards
something wonderful,
something more.
Like the cycles of the earth
where the winter is harsh and cold,
the plants and animals sleep
a dreamless sleep
until spring begins anew
and their journey resumes.
 
One day it will be my turn,
and as my bones nourish the earth,
giving back what has been taken,
I know I will see you again,
in another place,
another time
smiling at me with that special smile
all my own.
 
The grass under my toes
roots deep and firm,
feed me strength so I can carry on
until that day we are together again.
My heart heals,
life returns.
I am ready,
I am reborn
into the circle of life once more.
 
 
~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

Water

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Water.
A soothing balm
to my pain filled heart,
washing sins away
so I can start anew.
Life before me,
darkness behind,
never to look back
unless demons reappear.
I gave you my heart
and you threw it away,
never even considering
what punishment awaits.
I would fear for you
as I lay drifting
peace finally finding me,
but to do so would mean
looking back
when before me lay
so many possibilities
of life,
song,
growth
and that ever elusive
yet never defeated
precious thing called
love.

~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes