Tag: Darkness

Angel of Music

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Angel of Music
sings softly to me.
Whispering promises
not meant to be.
True love kisses
breaks spellbound heart.
Angel of Music
now silent,
lost.
Desperate to keep
what once was his,
Angel of Music
falls from heaven
to evil’s bliss
to find love taken
yet not returned,
is love lost
in a kiss.
Discovery opens eyes
to misery deep,
Angel of Music
for love forgiven weeps.

~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

While I was watching the Phantom of the Opera the other day, I had written a poem. Then as I was about to finish it, happy with what I had written, I lost it. Let’s just say it was not a happy moment. While this is not the original, part of it came back to me and I posted that on Twitter. This morning the rest came to me so I finished it. 🙂

Shattered

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Image: Desktop Nexus Miserable
Image: Desktop Nexus
Miserable

Pieces of my soul
lay shattered before me,
windows into my past,
present,
future
open for all to see.
Where were the promises,
where were the vows,
to keep my soul,
my heart,
in the shelter of your love?
Why did you forsake me
when I needed you most?
Answers I must have!
I will find you,
I will seek my revenge
then, maybe, my soul will piece together
and I can live again.

~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

Anew

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Image: Desktop Nexus

Light flashes in the night

Booming thunder shakes the house

Pounding rain fills the air

Rivers gorge on its wealth

Rushing, churning

Taking everything in its path

In careless abandonment

To paces unknown.

The quiet is deafening

As the storm spent passes on

Hesitantly, one by one, birds call out

As if afraid to bring natures wraith

Upon them.

Air so clean and bright

Sun peaks its rays in the night

Dawn brings a new day

Birds sing with glee as seeds poke their heads

Through soil drenched in love.

Life renews and continues on

Paths set out before

Those ready to learn lessons

Until time grows short and darkness descends

Asleep until called again to being anew.

 

 ~ © Heidi Barnes

Giving Me All

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As light descends into dark

I hear your voice

and my heart shatters.

Whispered touch

picks up the pieces

putting them together,

giving me hope

giving me life.

Darkness prevails

demons hide

waiting for greed

thirsting for blood,

but when the days are cold

and dreams waste away

your kiss brings life

into my shattered soul,

and demons fall away

crawling back into darkness

to wait for weakness

that will never come

as long as you shine

giving me life,

giving me love,

giving me all.

~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

 

 

 

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Image Desktop Nexus

Voices in the dark

promising no pain,

peace.

With grief overwhelming

heartache profound

I step towards the silky warmth

needing what is promised

praying for ends respite.

A hand in mind

holding me back,

begging to stay

to come home

into the light.

Darkness reaches out

tendrils cool to the touch,

coaxing me forward

giving a taste of peace

so desperately sought.

Hovering on the edge

between life and loss,

a battle of wills

the ending yet seen

until hold breaks

I fall into arms embrace.

Eyes slowly open

a surprise awaits….

~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

Why? ~ Grief’s If Only

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Image: We Heart It Grief
Image: We Heart It
Grief

The signs were all there…

Why didn’t I see them?

I could have stopped this from happening

if I had just followed what my gut was trying to tell me.

I should have told him to watch her,

that something was not right,

but I knew he would never listen.

Too much anger between us.

Too much bitterness.

Why didn’t I see them?

Looking back the signs are so clear.

Her mention of ghosts

and if we believed in them.

Knowing from experience that loved ones

long passed,

come when the end is near.

The way she said she did not want to go,

like she knew she was not coming back.

The spurt of unease that I chose to ignore

as a mother’s always present protectiveness

for her child.

Why?

Why didn’t I listen?

If I had….

Why?

~ © 2014 Heidi Barnes

Grief Consumes

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Image: We Heart It

I reach for you

you are no longer there.

I call for you

but you no longer answer.

The cold seeps in

as darkness surrounds me.

Voices in the shadows

call to me

begging me to come home

but I can’t.

There is no home for me

not without you.

The light begs to come in

seeping through the dark

breaking the cocoon keeping the pain out.

I will not let it in.

I am safe here

I will wait here

I will…..

One Step

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Taking one step at a time,

the world seeming big

my courage small.

Do I dare chance

feeling the pain?

Do I put myself out there

when I know what awaits me?

My heart is barely healed

yet I cannot bear the silence alone.

So I take one step into the unknown,

put my heart in jeopardy.

Try to relearn how to live,

how to breathe without you.

Days, years, of darkness

the sun is bright.

I shy away,

fear holding me back

from what I know I need to do.

A warm hand,

a gentle smile

and I know I am not alone.

My pain shared

with knowledge bittersweet.

My heart forever pieces missing

I will survive,

I will go on.

True love a distant memory,

never forgotten

yet not impossible.

One step at a time

until we meet again.

~ © 2013 Heidi Barnes for It Happened at Sunrise One Christmas Morn

This was inspired by a story I am writing from a free write. If you would like to follow the story you can go here to read the chapter 1 of It Happened at Sunrise one Christmas Morn. I will post chapters as I write them. This will be the rough draft. Depending on how things go I will publish the final draft on Kindle.

There is another story there, Forever Lost, that started the same way. As I am polishing it up I am learning more so the final draft will be a bit different the rough draft on my site.

Not Alone

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When the hits keep coming

How do I keep upright

When all I want is to lay down?

How do I win

When all is against me?

How do I learn to love

When my heart is shattered?

My faith is hanging by a thread,

Fingers bloody and torn.

It would be easy to let go,

Fall into darkness

Let despair swallow me whole.

Light extinguished for all time.

Remember you are not alone.

There are those who have suffered

Felt the despair

The grief

The loneliness.

Learn what time has taught them.

Learn life goes on

Though it feels like the end.

Learn that when faith seems shattered

It is only around the bend,

Waiting for you to reclaim.

And most of all

Remember

You are not alone

~ © 2013 Heidi Barnes